stress of life

Yaa i agree that stress is a normal part of life

that can help us grow and learn and prepare us for action or fight

but dun forget it can cause us significant problem oso aargh!!!

full of strees this few day

headache with what they always bla bla infront of mii

hey im feel suffer by now about what u all talking to me

 speechless by there and watching movie

both of them talking non-stop beside me haiz what to do just respect them=(

what i wan actually?

-airline?

-business?

-kastam?

-make up?

but i feel she ask me taking beauty course better

should i need to continue my degree although result not so good?

i have find job at outstation for short while should i go?

high salary and quite good for me can learn to be independent

but they more prefer i stay at taiping by saying that salary high doesn't mean everything

she say i still need spend for daily life and house rent monthly

if stay at here can save more money and being protect by dad again

the whole night i cant sleep

lying at bed and ask myself alot of question being question mark for me
whole mind full of my future and job

yaa im the one who most worried with my future but just din tell out

please give me some time..

time can re-adjust me to the new life and being mature on my thinking and decision

so mum grandmum dont worry about me

i will be tough for what im facing now

"i noe what im doing 我知道 我自己在做些什麼 "

this what i always tell u all since im in small age till now

the end

Dont ever think that you are useless

很多时候我们都不知道

自己的价值是多少 

我们应该做什么

这一生才不会浪费掉

我们到底重不重要

我们是不是很渺小

深藏在心中的那一套

人家会不会觉得可笑

不要认为自己没有用 

不要老是坐在那边看天空 

如果你自己都不愿意动 

还有谁可以帮助你成功

不要认为自己没有用 

不要让自卑左右你向前冲 

每个人的贡献都不同 

也许你就是最好的那种

this lyric song remind that
 we do not know what is the value of their own
what should we do so we will not be wasted in this life

please dont ever think that you are useless now
a meaningfull song for mii after get mine result today
i have think before im so scared if i can't get what i wan when result coming out
what can i do after thiss?working?
many question marks appear in my mind now
before taking mine result around 12pm
i siting alone at larut matang eating ais kacang by waiting
saw crazy white horse sitting infront me and looking here
feel uncomfortable and away from that place as fas as possible
when reach school that moment
taking result that time almost teacher are around there and
im really got some feeling that i cant tell by just be tough and speechless at there
driving and try to relax myself at lake view that i always do it
im cry without any sound
actually there was no diffrent between useless people and me
isn't it true im useless by now =(
im hapii that i got them at mine side:
 aa choong  mesage me say i noe you feel scared now
 but you have try your best ad and i will right beside you although anything happen
perhaps i tell mum but she din say anything
just say u have try your best in exam ad yaa don't force yourself if u reli can't
my biao ge guan he phone and try help me for ways to remark my pa paper
mine da gu who always supported me
my fren such as jordan..hoe..xin ying and so on oso advise me
im so touching what u all try to tell me thankiew muaxx love u all

joan aa joan tats uuu...
you are not clever student just student always in middle result
since UPSR until now STPMthere's always a key that let u continue on your studies
but u always be lazy and never try score hard for your exam..
what happen to you!!!

Goodluck for our STPM result

only as high as i reach can i grow

only as far as i seek can i go

only as deep as i look can i see

only as much as i dream can i be...

 what do DREAM mean to mii??

that i always ask myself until now 20 years old i have found my answer

dream is something that drives mii to achieve what i really want 

and 

oso the word that gives mii the power of belief at times of uncertainties..

nowadays girl and boy are remain constant in politics,business and so on

actually what i wan quite simple just wana to be a woman

 which can help family or guy to release their burden

have mine own money for survive without relying on men

thats mine answer i can tell u now y i wana be independent

aaa!! im so scared with nex day which is coming soon

tats tomorow our result for stpm will coming out

although we have finish our exam but still feel tension tOo =(

firstly i need say thx you for mine family especially dad and mum
when i facing for any problem all of them wil suppoet mii in studies
two of them din't force mii and check for my homework before
they say that trust me that i wil try my best very well
but please don't feel tension in mine studies
arrgh T.T dad mum im so touching with what you all try to tell me
thankiew muaxx

GOD im praying by now

actually im not hope for all's A"s in mine result

i noe econ's subject i din't do well when exam

 3 of mine subject pass that i wish for tomorow

that's will be a key and chances for me to continue mine degree

that all i wish for mine exam 

wil take my muet result for tomorow oso

i have search i get band 3 feel so hapii for that hehe

toniTe all must sleep early yaa

we wil meet again soon mine fren^^

finally i wish all mine stpm/spm candidates goodluck for your result muaxx

our journey

early morning wake up mii haiz so tired 

stil got time before sumone cuming fetch mii

erm take picture before go outstation hehe..

this time go ipoh got batman nick and mii left hsiung bo go ye

nevermin luu we go shoping jusco yeaa

we go fetch tu batman he aa looking tired luu cauz after skul we go jor pity him

on the way we go ipoh haha got new kang tao 

tat driver nick crazy d he keep laughing non stop 

show us video when had dinner with boss and worker lolz

 that y cauz of alcohol they have been crazy and uncontrol themself

wahaha damn funny laa that boy i see 2nd time d luu =D

around 30 min more we reach ipoh wee happy mood-ing

i have saw something that i wanna buy hehe

sticky sweet waa mine favorite and  he buy for mii<3

thank you dear^^

hungry le three of us havent eat breakfast yet hoho wana keep fit sii bo=P 

eating at food and tea hong kong restaurant

hihi we cum again this is the 2nd time we enter le Oo =)

ehhem..dun understand y alwayz wana disturb that worker wor pity him

actually many choice of food at there all oso wana eat 

erm i choose to eat...

mango pudding with fruit cocktail

baked spagetti with black pepper pork chop

nice laa all of this yee so many choice he wana follow mii oso aiyerr><

but his wan iss beef de i oso canot eat geh

another wan iss red bean sago lolo look so black he look like to eat hor

haha later he kill mii xixi

huiyo ryuu namely batman he aa order forever love hehe

peach flavour maybe he miss hshiung gua hehe shh he noe nia

ha is loking for lengluii gua so serious =D
haiz wat laa u busy with libarian work till din have time eat

eat until hand oso gigil this pengajaran for uu =P

this is nissin noodle with fried pork

 yummy yummy

after eat jor we hlp friend for sumthing waiting tat moment

yorr that batman and nick kena bit by mii

who ask them say girl alwayz like to bit boy heee><

beck jusco again huhu shoping luu now

looking for watch..shoe..violin..and so on so nice laa

so cute we got saw domokun walala that hshiung din cum leh

very nice many type de oso got =P

nex station ipoh parade again oO
around 8pm we wana leave beck to taiping le haiyo
bye bye ipoh^^

beck taiping bandar warisan le we rest awhile den go yamcha le
with batman..hshiung..his son..teik wei..fang yii..phuah they all at gate cafe
cannot tahan lolz see fang yii de face wil laugh y he so funny???
gud laa got him we all keep laughing at there =)
nex station again batman house hehe sitting at outside and drinking shandy
all of us chit chat until midnite crazy jorr i keep laughing at there funny laa them
den we go beck home le tired day
tats all for yesterday =)

情人节快乐

 有了情人 会有不一样的情人节吗？

我从来没有过过情人节耶

就算以前真的有也只是跟对方说声情人节快乐

没收过礼物 所以说是什么感受我一点也不知道

原本以为他不会回来了，咳。。。

今年的情人节又是一个人过了 闷死了

如今当天半夜他回来了。。我很开心 等了两个钟

就在这一天女生们最期待的礼物和惊喜我都不敢去想了

我没出声 心里想回来就好。。回来就好

我变了吗？变得不乱发脾气了 什么事情都替人着想 

但他天亮就要回去了 心理有很多浪漫的计划却用不着

没关系咯 牺牲睡觉时间去吃麦当劳 

当晚陵晨三点多麦当劳好静 没有人的好像只有工作人员

就当二人世界 很奇怪吧 连厨师都偷懒睡着了 呵呵

我不会去埋怨 也不生气他没送我礼物
不过我没少了送礼物给他哦 开心就好 谁送都无所谓 对吧 

聊着聊着 大概五点多 我告诉他我很累 回家后

我等他到达家后 感觉很久没讲电话了 打给他聊着聊着睡着了

几个钟后 他载我去panorama约会吃早餐

之后他又冲冲忙忙回去做工了 这一天就这样过

我常想 人嘛 要学会知足就好了

他回来陪我过就算只是几个小时 我也满足了 只要当天你陪我过

the end

happy new year 2011

Be always at war with your vices

at peace with your neighbors and

let each new year find you a better man

tats we always heard as great of new years.

 wish u have a hapii new year and gud morning everyone..

cause of busy working until day before new year 

i din set hair and make-up for tOday

haiz cincaii laa make it simple can d

early morning wHole family sit tOgether laughing and chating

is the time get many angpau le oO wakaka =D
i feel that this year our relationship more closer hehe tat i wan yaa
my house have been full until sum of them siiting outside by opening table
  all kaki judi lolx nevermin laa 1 year 1 time nia hehe muz win money yeaa

at nite we have dinner at restaurant soon lee weee XD
nothing to describe so use picture to tell u all oO

 here mine ah gong and ah maa<3
since i born until now very few we can saw both of them taking photo
ahh gong aa although i now u buz with ur life now
but u muz always bek to hometown aa
everytime u bek here we juz call u ah gong den u bek kl again =(
we very few to communicate with uu until wat u like to do oso duno
this new year show us a gud chances to have gathering together
asking ah gong and ah maa favorite..and hobby hehe
that ah maa waiting each year when new year cuming^^
all of us lou shang lor

mine da gu..da bo muu and da bo<3

mine mumy<3

biao jie fu..biao jie..er gu..er gu zhang..da gu zhang and shu shu<3

all mine brother and sister<3

miine cuttiebird and ashton de doraemon

like it very much^^

after bek from restaurant all of us waiting for ah gong giving angpau yoohOo

sampai ah gong muz take plastic beg cauz of not enuf angpao lolx

that him^^

waa he 70++ years but look handsome oso laa=P

owh he like gardening so enviromentally 

very few saw guy like gardening de hor anyway laa specialsii bor??

after this all of us playing yan hua together look like recall beck to last time

she~miine tang jie look so sweet hor cauz off her smile

dad oso invite his indian fren sum tO our house for stimboot wuuu

see this picture bo??

she~namely patin mine dad fren de mum
100 years old++ le Oobelieve bo??
miine grandma and da bo taking picture with her =D
nex round i follow them go take angpau le
tats all for tOnite gudnaii muaxx